Archive | July, 2012

2 Ramadhan – I realized what I missed!

22 Jul

I slept lightheartedly last night,at peace with my self and every one around. Before going to bed, I felt a firefly buzzing around me. I seldom notice tiny common happenings around, but I payed inevitable attention to this tiny creature, for unknown reason. I saw it struggling, I saw it searching, I felt unrest, I noticed an element of search in its activity and in the very next moment, switched my eyes towards the dark painted sky.

The lightening bug and I shared so much in common. We had common themes of living. Its surprising that we are surrounded by modified mirrors at every instant, but we being blind never get to see the theory behind our existence. That’s a pity.

I learned today that I have spent a huge portion of my life in disgrace. I had indication sprinkled around me like molecules of air, but I ignored every single hint. I had people I could do deeds of kindness for, I had spare time I could pray in, I wasted opportunities which could have helped me explore my self and what not. It’s not only spiritual, it’s practical. It makes sense, completely.

So, no more wasting of life! from today on-wards I would do some thing worth in every single breath I take. May it be a small prayer. May it be building a huge empire. 🙂


Ramadhan Trial – an intense migration within the soul.

21 Jul

Ramadhan Trial - an intense migration within the soul.

The first blush of the sun is visible onto the wide canvas, as the day peeps in, silently yet visibly, after Sehri (breakfast).

It’s 1st Ramadan (Saturday) here in Pakistan, and here I am beside my laptop ready to drop a note,living up to my promise which I made to myself a few days back, an oath to learn and be grateful for the blessings poured on me by ALLAH, specially in this Holy month of Ramadhan.

Firstly, Ramadhan Kareem everyone! may this month revive your soul, and assist you in confronting that pure, sin-free living sculpture inside you, which was created by the divine merely for the sake of love. Human! you were loved by the creator, I was held high, and desired and so, was bought to life. That’s an amazing feeling, it brings back life to me. 🙂

So, on the very prestigious first day of this holy month, I read an article in the Urdu Magazine titled “Hijrat Ka Sikandar” by Tariq Baloch Sehrai. He conveys an enchanting message and a lesson to the world by writing “Bara Banne ke liye Banda Rab ko nahi, Rab Bande ko chunta hay.” Translation: It is the divine who chooses a human to be uphold-ed, not the human. Glorious words, deeply exhilarating, and so true!

Our lives are enigmas. We know there is a director of our movie somewhere, yet we think we get to choose our role, our dialogues, our position, and our fate. But that merciful never forgets that the actor/actress should be given his/her space and time to learn and they have the right to be forgiven, for they stumble to fall near God.

Today, I learned that I have to trust God’s plans. Despite of the extreme leaps of non-gratefulness, If he could grant me such an amazing life, I am sure I can trust him for my days ahead. Life is God’s present, and I’ll live it his way. 🙂 Happy Fasting.

Youth Summer Camp Naran 2012

19 Jul

Standing amid the rocky green mountains, I closed my eyes and took a flight into the deep ocean of desires and wishes. The view from PYU Naran was epic. The sound of flowing water carried every moment away from the soul, I was so close to nature, so close to the divine, ALLAH.

The cool wet breezes whispered untold stories, as we comforted our selves in chairs so as to feel dissolved in the megacosm, I felt people weaving bonds and friendships. A moment of realization which was common to all of us, brought our hearts to our tongues, and we spoke our memoirs. A second of inspiration and freshness dragged our hands into each other’s arms and we posed for all kinds of pictures. There was rain, there was excitation, there were friends, there was SCHEDULE. everything! just about everything.

Besides nature, we had talents under the same roof. Apart from the Alpha, Bravo, Charlie and Habib company along with their respective company commanders, we had people with good hearts – how do I know that? Because they actually valued Naseema Apa and Ibraheem Bhai  for the tireless efforts they use to put in, for serving us the best meals and of course, Chhai 🙂

When I thought of writing about such angelic talented people, I decided to do it this way!

Best LAUGHTER – Sameera * for the laughter therapy, Cheers.

Best SINGER – Zoha and Munira (both these voices made me realize that I suck at singing :D) Hats Off

Best SONG BANK – our very own Farheen Api (I never wanted to be in your rival team. Trust me!)

Best PHOTOGRAPHER – Ill not brag, But it’s me. I have the most and the best pictures 😀

The Bhoopo (loud speaker) – It’s Bushra Haneef. (I will break your record one day. Yes!)

Trendy Icons – Amna and Alina (they had the eye-catching wardrobe)

Best Starer (Taaro) – Every one knows him! 😀

Best Camper – Naano aka Fatima.:)

Best Actress – Huda Api. Shake your head like a cock, ONCE MORE!

The Funniest – Sidra (famous for her cell facebook app )

The ultra-sensitive – Sakina! lol you had the spirit.

The Doctor – Dr. Amayna (you were incredible in understanding our problems)

The Brave knight – Sir Muddassir (Kudo’s to you)

The Alarm clock – Mrs Ambreen ( you killed our morning dreams) haha..

The Story teller – Sir Aijaz. *Salute 🙂

The real TEACHER – Mrs. Zareen Sadiq (literally rejoiced her company)

and lots of other’s. Thank you Ms Sadia, Amna Jalal, Samar, Fatima Sana and Sir Arshad for adding flavors to our journey. Ms Neelam, specially remembering you.

I love describing nature, and indeed it was a replica of heaven.. but this time, I had to think of even more beautiful marvel’s of Allah, the CROWD. I respect the level of acceptance, the eagerness to enjoy, and the courage to travel in economy class trains of Pakistan. That, indeed was a heck of an experience.


Piya! O re Piya – exclusively by Habib Company.

Bulbuley – By Charlie Company

Saif-ul-Malook jeep ride.

Photography on the road-side waterfall.

Metro-One interviews. Thank you Sir Zawaar.

Pranks in Murree.

Tug of War finals in Bhurban

Daman-e-Koh in Islamabad!

Train ride- TEEZ GAAM

Lahore Cantt station and Rawalpindi Cantt station.

Will always miss these days! Stay Blessed every one/


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